Saturday, August 30, 2008
Day 19 on Lexapro.
8:32 pm
Today I am tired.
On a day I could have slept in, I woke a little earlier than necessary. I tried to go back to sleep, but Em was ready to rise.
Good news awaited me, though.
I was resting in bed when I received a text from E. Liz [...]
Friday, August 29, 2008
Day 18 on Lexapro.
11:07pm
The past three mornings, I have actually gotten out of bed before it was absolutely necessary. In recent weeks, I had started rising approximately ten minutes before I went to work, leaving just enough time to throw on some wrinkled clothes, ponytail my hair, and brush my teeth. I’m [...]
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Day 17 on Lexapro.
written one day later.
What does a little redhaired girl have to do to get a casserole around here?
Seriously, ya’ll.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Day 16 on Lexapro.
written two days later.
Well, where to start?
This day was significant for two reasons.
The first reason is because I started implementing some of the old routines with Em. And it really made a difference. My first goal was to reinstate bedtime rituals. I wanted her to get out of the [...]
Sometimes he would grab my shoulders and pull me toward him. I could feel his fingers, wrought with anger, digging into the tops of my arms. I still remember the sick sensation I felt as he drew me closer…until he would finally purse his lips and tightly kiss the top of my head.
I knew in [...]
The other night I lay on the couch and watched a documentary about tsunamis. During this time, a story was recounted that I have heard many times before. Every time I hear it, I am fascinated.
Apparently, in the 1950’s, a giant wave formed in a small Alaskan bay. Today, you can see proof of its [...]
The day after you were born, I laid on my side facing you, your tiny body nestled against mine. You nursed so easily. I was euphoric. I had waited so long for you to join me. You were only a day old and I already loved you so much. You were beautiful. Tiny and beautiful. [...]
It is when I am sick that I desperately seek the approval of others. When I was younger, this was more apparent. At the height of my illness, I rarely made a decision without calling six to eight people to see if they agreed with something I was about to do. Often, some would say [...]
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Day 15 on Lexapro.
10:54 pm
It is getting easier for me to go to work, though I still get a sick feeling before I leave the house in the morning. Sometimes I give in to it and sometimes I don’t. I wonder now if it is more of a Pavlov’s dog type of [...]
Monday, August 25, 2008
Day 14 on Lexapro.
written two days later.
Just another day to get through.
It’s getting easier.
