Sort of Nice

Friday, August 22, 2008
Day 11 on Lexapro.
10:10 pm

Don’t get your hopes up because I’m wearing lipstick today.

Amazing. How can I complain? Today was certainly not the best day I’ve had, but, compared to its predecessors, it was pretty damn good.

First, I slept well. I even slept all night. I woke up at 2:30am, [...]

Gee, Honey

Thursday, August 21, 2008
Day 10 on Lexapro.
written 1 day later.
“why are you so mean to me/
gee, honey, it seems to me/
you love to see me cryin’”

Following a day that seemed to offer a reprieve from the constant panic and pain, I once again woke with the same disturbing thoughts piercing my mind. In the muddy [...]

Lifting

Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Day 9 on Lexapro.
written 2 days later.
Rain hypnotizes me and makes me feel like magic.

This was the first day I woke and did not find myself in the midst of a constant panic attack. It was both amazing and foreign at the same time. What is more, I had almost slept [...]