Sunday, August 24, 2008

Day 13 on Lexapro.

9:36 pm

I am okay. Another long day that went too quickly. Tomorrow I have to return to work.

I skipped church again this morning. I just felt like I wasn’t ready to deal with the crowds. Masses of people usually do not bother me, but when I am in panic mode, I become a little agoraphobic and a little claustrophobic. Because going to work (where I sit alone in an office all day) became easier for me last week, I assume I will reach the point where returning to church, and consequently the choir loft, will become easy again as well.

I sit here tonight, grateful for how far I’ve come in such a short time. It has been several days since the constant panic attacks ended. I think today may have been the first day I didn’t even have one. I am looking forward to seeing what the rest of the week holds.