Monday, August 18, 2008
Day 7 on Lexapro.
4:21pm
Today did not get off to a great start. I woke up at 4am and was totally fooled into thinking I would be able to get back to sleep. And I did…but it took 3 hours. In the meantime, I laid in bed with the covers pulled over my [...]
August 19, 2008
Categories: Bipolars, Updates . Tags: 2008, afternoon, Animal House, August, avalanche, bad thoughts, bipolar, blankets, breathe, bulimia, Canon 30D, chest pain, damn, depressive, documentary, energy, fooled, glasses, heart, hospital, hurt, ignore, impossible, insomnia, Lamictal, Lexapro, light, Lori Brown, lying, makeup, mania, manic depression, mental ward, Monday, monsters, morning, nap, okay, panic attack, passport, picture, ponytail, sad, scary, sensitive, sleep, stomachache, strain, suffering, truth, unbearable, update, volcanoes, vomiting . Author: fancylori . Comments: 2 Comments
stand next to me
with our backs to the wall
and slide down
until we hit the ground
leaning
on the wall
on each other
just a little
not enough
to make it weird
hold my hand
for five minutes
hold my hand
just a little
not enough
to make it weird
and breathe
breathe a little
close our eyes
and relax
and for five minutes
dont worry
about anything
dont talk
dont laugh
dont judge
dont try to draw lines
where [...]
August 18, 2008
Categories: Pomes . Tags: bad, breathe, bricks, dumb, eyes, hands, holding, judgment, laugh, legs, poem, poetry, relax, sense, slide, wall, weird, worry . Author: fancylori . Comments: 2 Comments
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Day 6 on Lexapro.
3:21pm
So, today is a little bit better than yesterday. Since the dreary moment I found myself hovering over the toilet six days ago, I’ve been on what I’m calling self-inflicted bed rest. Self-inflicted bed rest consists of (but is not limited to) the following activities:
** wearing a fantastic [...]
August 17, 2008
Categories: Bipolars, Updates . Tags: A&E Biography, agoraphobic, air conditioner, Animal House, August, bed rest, Bette Midler, bipolar, bulimia, cleaning, crying, depression, Ding Dongs, documentary, fantastic, groceries, Hostess, I Love Lucy, inner core, John Belushi, Lamictal, Lexapro, long day, mania, manic depressive, old pizza, overwhelmed, pain, pajamas, panic attack, racing thoughts, Sunday, thinking, tired, upset, vomiting . Author: fancylori . Comments: 2 Comments
Well, the Bipolars came back.
Sonofabitch.
And I didn’t even recognize them. They came to the door, swathed in a pastel pink coat, sporting a soft blonde bob of a hairdo and jawing at delicious-at-first-but-prolly-lost-its-taste-after-five-seconds chewing gum.
And so, pleasant as they seemed, I invited them in. And I offered them a cigarette and asked them to sit [...]
August 16, 2008
Categories: Bipolars . Tags: bipolar, breakdown, bulimia, cigarettes, depression, divorce, emotional, Lamictal, Lexapro, mania, manic depressive, medication, mental, pain, sharing, sick, stigma, struggle, vomiting . Author: fancylori . Comments: 4 Comments
