When I am sick, an emptiness creeps in that rattles my being to the core. It is an emptiness that doesn’t make sense and doesn’t have anything to do with how much I trust in God, or how confident I am, or how many supportive friends I have. Because I do, I am, and I [...]
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Day 22 on Lexapro.
Midnight
This morning I woke at 5am, the frenetic energy still coursing through my veins. I had expected a crash. Instead, my thoughts raced violently. I could almost feel the systems in my body working overtime. My physical being tingled in an electric way.
Please, please, let me go back [...]
Now I see what it is like for a parent who is consumed with depression and anxiety and has the weight of the world on their shoulders and a crushing symphony of mistuned thoughts in their head.
Now I see how difficult it is to focus on anything but the blanket of problems that surround you. [...]
Monday, September 1, 2008
Day 21 on Lexapro.
written one day later.
This morning when I woke, I felt great. Those were the words that were rolling feverishly through my mind:
I feel great.
Somehow, I had a lot of energy and didn’t even feel the need to go back to bed. I was able to easily prepare breakfast for [...]
When I take Em to the mall, we always stop in the middle to throw pennies in the fountain.
“Time to make a wish!” She excitedly sings.
I dig in the bottom of my purse, earnestly searching for two copper coins.
When I’ve found them, I give her one and keep the other for myself. She likes [...]
