New York City, 1996.
19 years old.
My mind would get so full it was almost blinding. My vision literally blurred. My thoughts raced and piled on top of one another until there wasn’t room for anything else. I could literally feel the pressure in my brain. It made me tired, but the aching energy in my [...]
When I was young, my thoughts tortured me. My mind was constantly racing. I could not sleep at night. I suffered extreme anxiety. The result was pages upon pages of mostly senseless thoughts written in notebooks I still keep. At one point, after I had been hospitalized in 2000, I pored through the notebooks and [...]
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Day 24 on Lexapro.
Day 1 on Lamactil.
written one day later.
The night before, I dreamt about spiders. When I walked outside this morning, these were on my patio wall.
When I woke this day, I felt very good. The night before, while on the phone with a good friend, the aching mania had gone [...]
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Day 23 on Lexapro.
written two days later.
“Reunited and it feels so good/Reunited ’cause we understood/There’s one perfect fit/And sugar, this one is it/We both are so excited/’Cause we’re reunited, hey, hey” — Peaches and Herb
This [...]
