Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Day 29 on Lexapro.
Day 6 on Lamictal.
written 1 day later.
posted 2 weeks later.
I’m a friend of thunder/
So it isn’t any wonder
Lightning strikes me/
But I’ll put this cloud
Behind me/
That’s how the man
Designed me.
– I’m No Stranger to the Rain
This day was not super easy. I was okay at work, but then I decided [...]
Monday, September 8, 2008
Day 28 on Lexapro.
Day 5 on Lamictal.
written 4 days later…
posted 2 weeks later…
This day was wonderful. I woke up feeling great. It seemed as though the medicine was already kicking in. Before work, I had energy. I was able to fully dress Em, which was major progress for me. (When I was sick, I would [...]
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Day 27 on Lexapro.
Day 4 on Lamactil.
written two days later.
Another Sunday. I am still not ready to go to church. I am usually never absent. Em really misses it. She misses her friends. She asks me if she’ll ever see them again. I assure her she most definitely will.
This day was frustrating [...]
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Day 26 on Lexapro.
Day 3 on Lamactil.
written three days later.
All that I really have to say about this day is that the laundry got done. That’s right. The laundry got done.
For weeks it had been piling up…load after load. At first it was piled in an overwhelming heap on the laundry room [...]
Friday, September 5, 2008
Day 25 on Lexapro.
Day 2 on Lamactil.
written four days later.
To sufficiently update, I will report that I have not been sick to my stomach before leaving for work for a very long time now. That is a wonderful, wonderful thing.
I will also report that I am starting to thoroughly enjoy my job [...]
I would like to thank everyone for their love and support during this time, but specifically:
Fabulous soprano MJ for calling me, sending a box of Raisin Bran Crunch, purchasing me some new snazzy attire, and making me laugh.
Fabulous soprano S. for calling to check on me.
Fabulous friend EG for calling to check [...]
Keep me in a drawer at your bedside
Take me out whenever you need
Use me good until you’re done
Then toss me aside.
Now do you feel pretty?
Now do you feel smart?
Put me back until next time.
I’m cheap and easy to find.
I’ll be there until I’m gone
And soon I may be gone.
No more your string to pull.
No more [...]
1978-79
My heart still aches for her. I only wish she had known. That someone else had recognized it sooner and reached out to help her. I know that in the end, you can only help yourself. You can’t save anybody else, and nobody else can save you. But knowledge is power.
She was young. She was [...]
The public figures that often fascinate us are the ones who seemed to have the world at their fingertips, but were so self-destructive at the same time. So self-destructive, in fact, that many of them died as a result. Marilyn Monroe. Elvis Presley. John Belushi. These are a few with whom our society seems transfixed. [...]
Chicago, October, 2000.
23 years old.
She told me I would have to get better.
Now that I knew what the problem was, I would have to get better.
She couldn’t take it anymore.
It had become too much.
I sat on the back porch of our apartment, smoking cigarettes and crying. I remember thinking, I can’t get better. [...]
