Thursday, October 23, 2008
Day 73 on Lexapro.
Day 51 on Lamictal.
posted several days later…
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I think one of the reasons I was afraid to reconnect with old friends is because I didn’t want to be reminded of who I had been. I knew that many of them had seen me at my worst and would remember things [...]
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Day 72 on Lexapro.
Day 50 on Lamictal.
posted a few days later…
This night, as we sat eating dinner, Em leaned in and looked at me.
“Sooo…how was school?” She asked in a chipper tone.
“Sooo…how was school?” I asked her back.
“No. I’m asking you. How was school?”
“I didn’t go to school today, silly. I went [...]
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Day 71 on Lexapro.
Day 49 on Lamictal.
posted several days later…
This day, when I went to get Em from school, I snuck onto the playground and rushed over to her.
I found her playing with two other girls and holding something that looked like a bird’s nest.
What were they doing? I thought. Were [...]
Monday, October 20, 2008
Day 70 on Lexapro.
Day 48 on Lamictal.
posted a few days later…
Since the breakdown, one of my major goals has been to do my very best for Em. Of course, I have always wanted what is best for her, but during the time that I was sick, I do not feel [...]
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Day 69 on Lexapro.
Day 47 on Lamictal.
posted a few days later…
I still have not returned to church. At this point, I am not sure why.
In my head I have come up with several very impressive reasons, none of which I can recognize as valid.
The hesitancy regarding this matter confuses me.
A big part [...]
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Day 68 on Lexapro.
Day 46 on Lamictal.
posted several days later…
This day was very important for me. It was the first of two weekends in a row that I was going to spend the entire day photographing a wedding.
This job was for friends of [...]
Friday, October 17, 2008
Day 67 on Lexapro.
Day 45 on Lamictal.
posted several days later…
This morning when I walked outside, the cool air hit me and sent a surge of energy through my body. A thrill went up my spine.
The onset of autumn embraced me as though my love for it was mutual.
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Thursday, October 16, 2008
Day 66 on Lexapro
Day 44 on Lamictal
posted several days later…
This morning in the car, Em was in a chatty mood.
“Hey, mom.”
“Yes?”
“Do you remember?”
<Silence>
“Do you remember when I frowed up? And then YOU frowed up?”
“Yes.”
“Do you remember when I frowed up in your bed? And in the potty? And where [...]
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Day 65 on Lexapro.
Day 43 on Lamictal.
posted several days later…
This morning I woke a little tired, though I had slept well. The night before, I had fallen asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.
I thought about how wonderful this was, as I have had such massive insomnia [...]
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Day 64 on Lexapro.
Day 42 on Lamictal.
posted several days later…
At this time in my life, many changes are being made. Over the past two months, my mind has gotten clearer. My energy has returned. Everything has become easier.
As the complexity of daily chores has disintegrated, I am left with the opportunity to [...]
