Monday, October 13, 2008
Day 63 on Lexapro.
Day 41 on Lamictal.
posted five days later.
My thoughts are still racing at times. Most of the time they are good thoughts about my new life — my forward journey. Encouraging ideas that will help me survive.
When I get tired, though, the bad thoughts return. They pummel me now like [...]
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Day 62 on Lexapro.
Day 40 on Lamictal.
posted a few days later.
“Oh there were others/ Some were friends/ Some were merely lovers.”
- Don Williams
I am a lover. I possess a soft heart. This is something I hate to admit, as it is a dangerous quality to be sure.
But it is true.
When I make friends, I [...]
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Day 61 on Lexapro.
Day 39 on Lamictal.
posted a few days later.
“…we don’t have to worry about money no more. And I said, that’s good. One less thing.”
- Forrest Gump
Today, I had one of my first photo shoots in a while.
A few months prior to the breakdown, I had scheduled two weddings for [...]
Friday, October 10, 2008
Day 60 on Lexapro.
Day 38 on Lamictal.
posted a few days later.
Today is okay. My head still gets a little bothered, but I’m pretty sure it happens when I get tired, overwhelmed, or lonely. At some point throughout the time that passes, I experience all of these things in varying degrees.
Today I am tired. And [...]
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It has come to my attention that many buildings do not have a thirteenth floor. Of course, they do have a thirteenth floor. They are just not recognized as such. Instead, numbered floors skip straight from twelve to fourteen. Thirteen is bad luck, you see. A thirteenth floor would spell disaster, I guess.
Of course, this whole idea [...]
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I was thought to be a hypochondriac. So much so that I questioned it constantly myself.
Am I sick?
No.
Why do I feel sick?
You don’t. Just ignore it and it will go away. Stop thinking about it and it won’t bother you.
You’re not that tired. You can’t be that tired. You slept for eight hours last night. Stop complaining.
If she is [...]
Almost 32 years ago, I was born in a small town located approximately 50 miles east of Fort Worth. I do not remember much about this town, except our two story white house and my grandparent’s one story white house located just a couple of blocks away.
I remember climbing the stairs to my parents bedroom, [...]
Let me be gorgeous
for just an hour
Let me be winsome
and sweet
and kiss you
and turn
and walk
away
Let me be pretty
for just a minute
Let my hair be flowing
and my hips be swaying
and my eyes be twinkling
Let me believe it
for just a second
Let me think it so much
That it can’t be untrue
Let me be gorgeous
For a moment in time
Just a split [...]
In my sickness, when my brain goes rotten, it is then I see myself through another’s eyes. One person I’ve chosen to represent all of the ill things I think of myself…all of the worries I have about the things I am and the things I am not. Who treats me the way a small part of me [...]
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Day 38 on Lexapro.
Day 15 on Lamictal.
written ?? days later.
posted a long time later.
As Em and I left our evacuation spot behind, we made one last stop at the edge of town. This little white house once belonged to my aunt and uncle. My uncle still works the ranch on which this [...]
