Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Day 106 on Lexapro <oops.>
Day 84 on Lamictal
posted much, much later…
This day, everything crashed. My head went into a steady buzz of confusion and all of my thoughts ran together so neatly and politely that I hardly could do anything about them. I mustered through the day and this night the [...]
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Day 105 on Lexapro. <oops.>
Day 83 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
This day I am starting to get foggy and confused. At this point, though, I have not shown any drastic signs of upset or panic. I am still under the impression that I am doing so well without the medication that I [...]
Monday, December 1, 2008
Day 104 on Lexapro. <oops.>
Day 82 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
This day I am still feeling good enough to think that I need to work instead of take time off to get my medication.
Inwardly, I am proud of myself.
And like a fool, for the five hundredth time in [...]
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Day 103 on Lexapro <oops.>
Day 81 on Lamictal
posted much, much later…
This day, we put up our Christmas trees.
One for Em.
And one for both of us.
Hooray.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Day 102 on Lexapro <oops>
Day 80 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
This day, despite having missed my Lexapro, I feel okay.
And this day, like most every Saturday, I am struggling to get caught up.
On everything.
Sometimes it seems impossible.
But I will not give up.
Friday November 28, 2008
Day 101 on Lexapro. <oops.>
Day 79 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
This day I went into the office and worked.
And this day, I had waited to long to refill my Lexapro.
When I called the doctor’s office, they were closed.
So I knew I’d have to wait until Monday to get [...]
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Day 100 on Lexapro.
Day 78 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
This day was Thanksgiving.
I stayed home and worked.
The end.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Day 99 on Lexapro.
Day 77 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
This night I sat across the table from one of my very favorite friends.
In my mind, Jennifer has always been beautiful and extremely sophisticated. She is smart, funny, and cool in a way that I am not. I am always happy [...]
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Day 98 on Lexapro.
Day 76 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
Today my head is bothering me. Maybe it is because I am tired. Maybe it is because I am stressed.
Or maybe it is a combination of some things in addition to other things…minus this thing plus a whole lot of that [...]
Monday November 24, 2008
Day 97 on Lexapro.
Day 75 on Lamictal.
posted much, much later…
Today
I am
not
pretty
Today
my
teeth
are
crooked
and
my
roots
are
brown
and
my
waist
is
thick.
Today
I am
feigning
wit and
charm
and a
good
attitude
Today
I am
not
sultry
or
dainty
or
sweet
(No
maybe
not
sweet)
but
under
it
all
(quite
deep
under
it
all)
I am
still
me
(and
I
apologize
for
that)
Yes
under
it
all
(Against
my
better
judgment)
I am still me.
